awk, sihat tak? sy kat sini sihat2 je. at least physically. oh, but that doesn't mean emotionally i'm not ok. i think i'm ok inside too. utk sesorang yang baru putus cinta ( hahahaha! dulu mati-matian tak kan mengaku bercinta), sy rase sy masih lagi waras.
sebenarnye, smp sekarang sy tatau ape da jd sebenarnye. setiap hari, no matter how busy i made myself be, akan ada saat2 yang sy akan terpikir tentang awk, dan terpikir, " what went wrong?".." what did i do wrong?", sy yang berubah ke awk yang berubah? kenapa awk decide nak tinggalkan sy, at times sy da berazam utk menjadi lebih baik, dan berusaha bersungguh2 nk paham awk? SHOULDN'T I BE THE ONE DUMPING U???? hohoho... maybe tu antara sebab sy still bengang. hehehe... typical me.
sy benci menyalahkan diri sy setiap hari. sy tau sy tak sempurna, but u are not that awesome either. you are nice, fun, smart, confident, but that doesn't give you any right to break me as such. so much for being honest with each other eh? i am honest, to the best level i could. but u, on the other hand, a real poser. u said u hid things from my knowledge to avoid my heartache, but i can't help feeling that u are just hiding it to avoid being guilty. FOOLISH ME, kn?
all the while, i've told you, bercintalah secara sederhana. we never know whats gonna happen in the future. but nooooooo....you, being you, always want things to be extravagant. now, every time my parents start asking how you are living and doing there, seeing how they are worried about you makes me really sad and angry, and very disappointed, not to you, but to myself, for letting someone as selfish as you are near my family. somehow, deep down, i knew, once u there, you'll dump me once you get the opportunity. my instinct rarely fails me.
but being angry and sad wont make thing better for me. kn? therefore, now, i choose to let you go.
i do not wish to let you affect my life anymore. for the sake of our good memories, i'll simply believe all your excuses and will always be praying for your health, happiness and safety.
Please, badrul muneer mohamad, no matter what you do, or where you are, take care of yourself nicely k?
may you find what you are looking for. jaga solat, jaga amalan, jaga makan, jaga kesihatan awk k?
jaga hubungan dengan Allah SWT, dan jaga hubungan sesama manusia juga...
jujurlah pada diri sdr k? jgn pendam2 perasaan tu. kalau sedih, kalau marah... lepaskan je. simpan mende2 negative ni sorang2, xnk share ngn sesape boleh jd sakit tau x? thats why you are this miserable.
don't hurt another person like you did to me. sbb sakitnye, masyaAllah... jgn citer la.
it's ok for me to live without you, as long as i know you are happy, and healthy.
we will meet again someday. and when we do, hopefully, things will be better and we could laugh together at our stupidity. insyaAllah. =)
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